Run

Surrender is one of the most difficult things for me, I think.

It's fight or flight for me, even it seems when the right thing is to submit.

So I fight it for all it's worth or I drown it in distraction.

God, please help me. I'm not yet ready and I don't know if I ever will be. But I want to be.

I think "Surrender" by BarlowGirl is probably pretty accurate.

Yep.

Feeling and writing, but not now

Sometimes I really feel like writing. Things I've been thinking about and want to share. Or sometimes just expressing memories.

The latter is driving my current desire to share.

But I think I'll leave it locked up right now.

Words aren't adequate and I feel that words won't satisfy, not yet. I'm gonna miss my home for a little longer.

It's pleasant. In a strange sort of way.

God is good.