Return?

I hope that I am on the threshold of a decisive step back towards God.

I too have gone astray, I wish to return to my Shepherd. Yet my desires are impotent and fleeting.

I pray my Shepherd comes and finds me and brings me home.

I am highly skeptical of my authenticity in stating what I have written above.

I need you, God - this is a call.

Run

Surrender is one of the most difficult things for me, I think.

It's fight or flight for me, even it seems when the right thing is to submit.

So I fight it for all it's worth or I drown it in distraction.

God, please help me. I'm not yet ready and I don't know if I ever will be. But I want to be.

I think "Surrender" by BarlowGirl is probably pretty accurate.

Yep.